hey people, its been quite a while since i updated my blog...maybe its because ppl aint responding and kind of feels like its no diff whether i blog or not. but yeah..the blog is for myself. so i've decided to blog abt today.
okay, the insane weather is driving me nuts *.* it was like freaking hot this afternoon and i thought i was going to get sunburnt when it started to pour like 20 minutes later. like MAKE UP YOUR MIND! grrrr..so apparently we went over to vj for a match today and before we could even start playing....rain. there goes our match. POSTPONED :(( and we'll have to go over another day for the game. sian. before that, the guys played and we lost 11-6. but its okay..cause im certain we tried our best and played super well, but vj was just lucky and it was not our day. so its okay guys. we DID play well. quite scary seeing the guys emo. they kinda cried and some just dropped to the floor and like ....emo. lol. but yeahh i think they feel quite helpless cause they did try their best but hmm..vj somehow only played well at the crucial time when their bases were loaded and sent all their runners back..RAHHHH..quite unfair lo. can say they quite tyco lah i think. sorry if i offend anyone. but yeah they did play hard too. :))
erm..im feeling quite sleepy and guilty now...cause i kinda pissed brian off i think. okay i was mean but its not like he never did that to me okay.....blahh...we just cant get along. siann... i feel bad >.< if you really felt offended, sorry dude. i dint know you'll be pissed. so yeah its kind of insensitive on my part. :x
i feel like im lagging behind my class a lot. im becoming quite complacent. NO GOOD. no good at all. im trying to catch up but i think im still not doing my best..feels like im catching up just to prove myself or something. and i found a huge problem with my personality. im sorry if i offended anyone before. really sorry, but i'll try to change that 'take everything for granted', super rude, super complacent, super unreflective, 'always think im right & smart', not understanding and 'patronise people a lot' attitude. its my new resolution. I'LL TRY real hard.

my life is super miserable and screwed. maybe that's why people are mean to me. - cause im mean to them.

"Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself." Mark 12:31

oh yar..BTW,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COACH!

till im emo again, ta.