i hate it when people talk about me behind my back
i'd prefer if you just tell me you hate me or like me RIGHT IN MY FACE
(but of course i'd still rather have no one who hates me)
come to think of it, if my life was truly miserable, i would never have had so many friends who have shown me so much care and concern since i came to hc
maybe its just my over-sensitive nature.
its not that i dont like the school
but my life hasnt been how it was like before
for better or for worse
actually, there's no difference, i just dont like changes.
conclusion
i never wanted attention
i dont want to be known
period.

thank you to all the friends out there who have redeemed me from misery in one way or another:
shuhui (for all the many things she has done)
qiao han (for telling me its fine and i should IGNORE)
fu jian (for providing his listening ear and proving that he's more miserable than i am)
zhi hong( erhem..excluding times when he made things worse)
there's more but these are probably the four that i rant most to. i have no idea why i rant to zhi hong but i just its just because he's gossipy and probably asked me first anyways ((:
thanks for tolerating all my rantings and telling me its okay.
sorry to those i dint mention but you've been great friends too. i hope you know who you are.