HAPPY NEW YEAR people!
so i've spent 3 days at my grandmother's house in malaysia. it bores the hell out of me, but its only in times of boredom that sets me thinking about so many things. the feeling of a birthday overwhelmes me. every new year, when i stay over at her house, i feel more like i'm 1 year older than during my birthday. i walk around the house, and bits of my memory gets pieced together. things that i've taken granted for an entire year, i feel a closure to the year there. i see pieces of cloth that becomes part of her furniture, a cushion cover or a rag that came from the same piece of cloth my quilt came from. haha. especially fiffy! (that rabbit thingy if you know what i mean) i see the sand box and i instantly remember the times when my cousins and i come up with our own concoction of potions from sand and mud, things that we imagine when we're young. (: its so awesome. i remember the little bits of my childhood there, just makes me feel like i'm so far away, like i'll never be the little girl i used to be. i wonder how its like for people to watch someone grow up, exceeding or falling below your expectations. could they have imagined i would be like this when i was young? i wonder if i fell short of what they anticipated.

and in times of boredom, i actually missed those primary school friends the most. haha. yes, i really did (: i wonder if its because we're always together these days. all of a sudden i feel so lost without someone to msg or msn (the limitations of technology) :/ HAHA. yeah, like cheng jia says, i always took them for granted. even in hc. i figured the only reason we saw each other was for softball. we dont even take extra time in school to talk and play. i guess we all have our own friends. but i think i'll never click with friends as much as i do with you guys. haha. it sounds a little selfish to my other friends, but i'm sure they'll understand. 12 years is a long time. and there's so much that we share. we're all so different yet so alike. its almost like a family, i think.

i wonder how it would be like when we're all separated, for school and ns. come to think of it, its actually not that far away. we'll soon come to decide in a few months time. maybe that's why we treasure each other so much now. when we're all over the world. when we're all busy with our stuff. when we cant find time to share anymore, will it still last? (: