well, here's the catch: its not up to you.

what's important is what everyone else thinks of how you dress, how you look, what you eat for lunch, what's your hobby, what music is on your ipod.

you wonder then: if everyone's opinion is what matters, do you ever really have one of your own? or are your opinions based on what you assume everyone else will value.

eventually, you lose yourself entirely.

and there's no point finding, because you'll never get it.
i confess guilty.

after the months that's wasted.
we are finally here.
where decisions are made, or stuck to.
i didnt make mine.
but i have to stick to them.
june spells camps, registrations, driving and french tests,
maybe also a whole new beginning, eventually.

please,
just f-ing leave me alone already.
bug someone who wants to be bugged,
god damn it.