omg, i've imagined this so many times.
but nothing feels like it now.
it hurts so bad......
please please please dont give up on me.
just another year or 2.
this feels so much more helpless than warwick.
and there's really really nothing i can do.
i wonder if he knows.
i wonder if he cares.

you know what it means to be a doctor?
it means you are hardly human.
you dont cringe when you hear a life is ending,
you dont cringe when you see people in fear.
that's what a doctor is, less human.
because to you, its just part of your job.
and you do your job well indeed,
but eventually, you'll find that you lost all emotions.

and its true what you all said,
that i've been latching too much of my life on my dog.
what happens when he's finally gone?
will i ever find the courage to replace him?

ouch.

will i even remember him after many more 10 years in my life?